I’m staring at a screen. Somehow I have just lost about 40 minutes of my day looking through free History courses online. Yeah. Learning without credit towards a degree. Because I graduated in May and am starting to wonder how the hell I am going to spend the next year of my life. This year that I planned to “take off”… Take off? From what? Life? Seems kind of ridiculous now.
I am moving to Portland, OR. Starting mid-September until I figure out what I want to do next with my life. I must have forgotten who I am because now that I am staring into the face of this seemingly infinite space of time with NO PLAN I am starting to get the tiniest bit panic-y. I once tried to take a semester off from school to “find myself” all I remember finding is a special love for Cuban rum and navy guys. It was just as counterproductive as it sounds.
So, now what? Move to a city where I have no friends, no job, no life plan. And do what exactly? Start drinking alone? Why did I think this was such a brilliant idea before?
Now is a good time to turn the music up.
Modest Mouse – The World At Large
Now would be a good time to mention a couple of things:
1) People have been secretly linking to me! I am humbled! But, why so secret? Let me know! I am especially blown away when it is people who have never commented (that I know of) and then all of a sudden I am linked. Wow.
2) A real life friend of mine who is pretty damn hilarious. And blunt. And badass. And awesome. Has just started blogging again. Check her out:
3) I am officially home from Europe (in case you haven’t already figured that out) about a month early due to some crazy ass shit that went down on the first WWOOF farm in France. Think slave labour. Think emotional abuse. Think running away with our packs on our backs in the middle of the day without telling anyone and then being CHASED by angry GERMAN WOMEN. Because all of that actually happened.
Life. It’s just so silly.